It doesn’t always come easy. For years I felt that who I am and who I am supposed to be aren’t the same. I always wanted more out of life. I wanted to BE more, DO more, HAVE more…..I wanted to LIVE…. to feel that rush of Life’s energy pulsing through me. I didn’t want to “go through the motions” of life everyday, but experience life as it should be. I wanted to do things I had never done before, go places, see things. I wanted to be remembered, I wanted to feel as if when my time on earth was over, there would be no regrets. No “if only’s” or “should haves”.
My journey to self-discovery began shortly after my youngest daughters birth. She was 4 weeks old when I went in for a routine gall bladder surgery. Very simple surgery, I would be able to leave that same day. However, as we soon discovered, there was nothing routine about it. Continue reading
To Work….or Not to Work……. that is the question my husband and I agonized over for several months, before I took the plunge and quit my job. It wasn’t an easy decision for us. We debated long and hard over what we felt would be right for our family. If I were to stay home once again, our lifestyle would have to change. While their are many perks to this lifestyle, there are also many drawbacks.
This isn’t my first time to be a Stay At Home Mom. I stayed home for 7 years before starting work 3 years ago. With the second income, our lifestyle changed. We ate out more, we went somewhere every weekend, rarely staying at home. And we were able to buy the kids more toys and gifts than we ever could previously. I’m not saying that we were extremely wealthy, by any means, only that it opened up a little bit more freedom than we had before. Over time that new lifestyle became our new habits.
We began to have to schedule in days that we could stay home. It sounds crazy, but we had gotten to the point where life was so hectic that we were always on the go. Every Saturday morning was spent cleaning the house, doing all the things we were not able to get done during the week. Once everyone was showered, dressed, and ready to go, we hit the town, or went to whatever we had planned that day. We always looked forward to those days when we had nothing planned and could just stay home all day. With both of us working all week, staying home had become our new luxury.
Ask any Working mother, and she will tell you that it is often a struggle to balance work and home.
Mornings were a rush to get not only myself ready but also the kids. I wish I could say that everything was organized and running on a smooth schedule…. everyone down early enough to eat breakfast together, dressed and ready to go. But ……….. I’m not a liar. The truth is that it was usually a mad dash to get everyone downstairs and in the car on time. Breakfast was skipped for me, and for the kids it was usually a quick bowl of cereal or pop tarts eaten in the car on the drive to school.