Last night I went into the local grocery store to pick up a few items, and was met by the strangest sight. Two boys that my son played Baseball with back in Elementary School were working as Sackers….. My oldest has talked about starting work next year, and I know that day is coming. But seeing those boys with their light fuzzy facial hair, WORKING, came as quite a shock. I suddenly felt so OLD! My baby boy is becoming a man.
I can still remember the day he was born. Looking into his eyes for the first time, holding him, awed and humbled to be given such a precious gift. I still remember his smile, and that sweet baby smell as I held him close to me when he was an infant. Now he is 15, will be driving soon, and working….. Where did the time go?
As he enters this next stage in life, he introduces us to all new worries…. car crashes, teen pregnancy, drugs, alcohol, smoking, staying out late, not knowing where he is, if he is O.K. I’d like to think that none of these common “teen problems” will touch us, but reality says at least some of them will. I can only hope that we have taught him well enough, made him strong enough, to make the right choices in life. But letting go is so hard.
As I look at each of my four children, I know the day will come when they will be on their own. I will always be here to support, encourage, and catch them should they ever fall. As parents we spend our lives preparing them for when that day comes.
But I wonder……… have I prepared myself?
This weekend I got some great shots of my oldest daughter Lauren. I consider this a great achievement for a couple of reasons, number one being she posed willingly for numerous photos and had fun doing it. In the past she has always been resistant to getting her photo taken. I had managed previously to get some shots of her and a friend while they were goofing off being silly, dressed up in her 8 year old sister’s dress up clothes, but other attempts were unsuccessful.
The photo shoot turned out to be a lot of fun for both of us. I found the red dress she is wearing at the Thrift Store earlier that morning for $6.99. I had her put the dress on, then I did her hair and makeup. When it was time to start shooting, my husband put his iphone on her favorite Pandora radio station, so music she liked to hear was playing in the background. We took a lot of photos, several of her dancing and goofing off, intermixed with the serious shots.Because we shot in Raw, and not JPEG, I did not keep all the shots taken, only the ones we really liked.
Greg and I rented a backdrop for this weekend, so we had her change into one of her own favorite dresses for the next set of shots . The pictures turned out great. I was thrilled. But what was most satisfying, and what makes this such a huge achievement, is that Lauren liked all the pictures also. SO many times we have gotten photos taken, and she never liked them. It always made me sad, because she is such a beautiful girl. For her to like her own photos is very gratifying. And since this was something that we had fun doing together, it makes each photo all the more special.